A Memory
You are not with me though the Spring is here!
And yet it seemed to-day as if the Spring
Were the same one that in an ancient year
Came suddenly upon our wandering.
You must remember all that chanced that day.
Can you forget the shy awaking call
Of the first robin?—And the foolish way
The squirrel ran along the low stone wall?
The half-retreating sound of water breaking,
Hushing, falling; while the pine-laden breeze
Told us the tumult many crows were making
Amid innumerable distant trees;
The certain presence of the birth of things
Around, above, beneath us,—everywhere;
The soft return of immemorial Springs
Thrilling with life the fragrant forest air;
All these were with us then. Can you forget?
Or must you—even as I—remember well?
To-day, all these were with me, there,—and yet
They seemed to have some bitter thing to tell;
They looked with questioning eyes, and seemed to wait
One’s doubtful coming whom of old they knew;
Till, seeing me alone and desolate,
They learned how vain was strong desire of you.
March Wind
High above the trees, swinging in across the hills,
There’s a wide cloud, ominous and slow;
And the wind that rushes over sends the little stars to cover
And the wavering shadow fade along the snow.
Surely on my window (Hark the tumult of the night!)
That’s first, fitful dropp of scanty rain;
And the hillside wakes and quivers with the strength of newborn
rivers
Come to make our Northland glad and free again.
O remember how the snow fell the long winter through!
Was it yesterday I tied your snowshoes on?
All my soul grew wild with yearning for the sight of your
returning
But I waited all those hours that you were gone.
For I watched you from our window through the blurring flakes
that fell
Till you gained the quiet wood, and then I knew
(When our pathways lay together how we reveled in such
weather!)
That the ancient things I loved would comfort you.
Now I knew that you would tarry in the shadow of the firs
And remember many winters overpast;
All the hidden signs I found you of the hiding life around you,
Sleeping patient till the year should wake at last.
Here a tuft of fern underneath the rounded drift;
A rock, there, behind a covered spring;
And here, nowhither tending, tracks beginning not nor
ending,—
Was it bird or shy four-footed furry thing?
And remember how we followed down the woodman’s winding
trail!
By the axe-strokes ringing louder, one by one,
Well we knew that we were nearing now the edges of the
clearing,—
O the gleam of chips all yellow in the sun!
But the twilight fell about us as we watched him at his work;
And in the south a sudden moon, hung low,
Beckoned us beyond the shadows—down the hill—across the
meadows
Where our little house loomed dark against the snow.
And that night, too—remember?—outside our quiet house,
Just before the dawn we heard the moaning wind;
Only then its wings were weighted with the storm itself created
And it hid the very things it came to find.
In the morn, when we arose, and looked out across the fields,
(Hark the branches! how they shatter overhear!)
Seemed it not that Time was sleeping, and the whole wide
world was keeping
All the silence of the Houses of the Dead?
Ah, but that was long ago! And tonight the wind foretells
(Hark, above the wind, the little laughing rills!)
Earth’s forgetfulness of sorrow when the dawn shall break
tomorrow
And lead me to the bases of the hills:
To the low southern hills where of old we used to go—
(Hark the rumor of ten thousand ancient Springs!)
O my love, to thy dark quiet—far beyond our North’s mad riot—
Do thy new Gods bring remembrance of such things?
A Prelude
Watching the tremulous flicker of the green
Against the open quiet of the sky,
I hear my ancient way-fellows convene
In the great wood behind me. Where I lie
They may not see me; for the grasses grow
As though no foot save June’s had wandered by;
Yet I, who am well-hidden, surely know,
As I have waited them, they yearn for me
To lead them whither they are fain to go.
Weary as I, are they, O Time, of thee!
Yea, we, who once were glad only of Spring,
Gather about thy wall and would be free!
With wounded feet we cease from wandering,
And with vain hands beat idly at thy gate;
And thou,—thou hast no thought of opening,
And from thy peace are we still separate.
Yet, comrades, though ye come together there,
And search across the shadows for my face,
Until the pines murmur of your despair,
I think I shall not tell my hiding-place,
For ye know not the path ye would pursue,
And it is late our footsteps to retrace.
Too weak am I, and now not one of you—
So weary are ye of each ancient way―
Retaineth strength enough to seek a new;
And ye are blind—knowing not night from day;
Crying at noontime, “Let us see the sun!”
And with the even, “O for rest, we pray!”
O Blind and fearful! Shall I, who have won
At last this little portion of content,
Yield all to be with you again undone?
Because ye languish in your prisonment
Must I now hearken to your bitter cry?
Must I forego, as ye long since forewent,
My vision of the far-off open sky?
Nay! Earth hath much ungiven she yet may give;
And though to-day your laboring souls would die,
From earth my soul gaineth the strength to live.
O covering grasses! O unchanging trees!
Is it not good to feel the odorous wind
Come down upon you with such harmonies
Only the giant hills can ever find?
O little leaves, are ye not glad to be?
Is not the sunlight fair, the shadow kind,
That falls at noon-time over you and me?
O gleam of birches lost among the firs,
Let your high treble chime in silverly
Across the half-imagined wind that stirs
A muffled organ-music from the pines!
Earth knows to-day that not one note of hers
Is minor. For, behold, the loud sun shines
Till the young maples are no longer gray,
And stronger grow their faint, uncertain lines;
Each violet takes a deeper blue to-day,
And purpler swell the cones hung overhead,
Until the sound of their far feet who stray
About the wood, fades from me; and, instead,
I hear a robin singing—not as one
That calls unto his mate, uncomforted—
But as one sings a welcome to the sun.
Not among men, or near men-fashioned things,
In the old years found I this present ease,
Though I have known the fellowship of kings
And tarried long in splendid palaces.
The worship of vast peoples has been mine,
The homage of uncounted pageantries.
Sea-offerings, and fruits of field and vine
Have humble folk been proud to bring to me;
And woven cloths of wonderful design
Have lain untouched in far lands over-sea,
Till the rich traffickers beheld my sails.
Long caravans have toiled on wearily—
Harassed yet watchful of their costly bales―
Across wide sandy places, glad to bear
Strange oils and perfumes strained in Indian vales,
Great gleaming rubies torn from some queen’s hair,
Yellow, long-hoarded coin and golden dust,
Deeming that I would find their offerings fair.
—O fairness quick to fade! Ashes and rust
And food for moths! O half-remembered things
Once altar-set!—I think when one is thrust
Far down in the under-world, where the worm clings
Close to the newly-dead, among the dead
Not one awakes to ask what gift she brings.
The color of her eyes, her hair outspread
In the most wind that stifles ere it blows,
Falls on unwatching eyes; and no man knows
The gracious odors that her garments shed.
And she, unwearied yet and not grown wise,
Follows a little while her devious way
Across the twilight; where no voice replies
When her voice calls, bravely; and where to-day
Is even as yesterday and all days were.
Great houses loom up swiftly, out of the gray.
Knocking at last, the gradual echoes stir
The hangings of unhaunted passages;
Until she surely knows only for her
Has this House hoarded up its silences
Since the beginning of the early years,
And that this night her soul shall dwell at ease
And grow forgetful of its ancient fears
In some long-kept, unviolated room.
And so the quiet city no more hears
Her footsteps, and the streets their dust resume.
But what have I to do with her and death
Who hold these living grasses in my hands,―
With her who liveth not, yet sorroweth?
(For it shall chance, however close the bands
Of sleep be drawn about her, nevertheless
She must remember alway the old lands
She wandered in, and their old hollowness.)
―Awaiting here the strong word of the trees,
My soul leans over to the wind’s caress,
One with the flowers; far off, it hears the sea’s
Rumor of large, unmeasured things, and yet
It has no yearning to remix with these.
For the pines whisper, lest it may forget,
Of the near pool; and how the shadow lies
On it forever; and of its edges, set
With maiden-hair; and how, in guardian-wise,
The alder trees bend over, until one
Forgets the color of the unseen skies
And loses all remembrance of the sun.
No echo there of the sea’s loss and pain;
Nor sound of little rivers, even, that run
Where with the wind the hollow reeds complain;
Nor the soft stir of marsh-waters, when dawn
Comes in with quiet covering of rain:
Only, all day, the shadow of peace upon
The pool’s gray breast; and with the fall of even,
The noiseless gleam of scattered stars—withdrawn
From the unfathomed treasuries of heaven.
And as the sea has not the strength to win
Back to its love my soul, O Comrades, ye―
In the wood lost, and seeking me therein―
Are not less impotent than all the sea!
My soul at last its ultimate house hath won,
And in that house shall sleep along with me.
Yea, we shall slumber softly, out of the sun,
To day and night alike indifferent,
Aware and unaware if Time be done.
Yet ere I go, ere yet your faith be spent,
For our old love I pass Earth’s message on:
“In me, why shouldst thou not find thy content?
“Are not my days surpassing fair, from dawn
To sunset, and my nights fulfilled with peace?
Shall not my strength remain when thou art gone
“The way of all blown dust? Shall Beauty cease
Upon my face because thy face grows gray?
Behold, thine hours, even now, fade and decrease,
“And thou hast got no wisdom; yet I say
This thing there is to learn ere thou must go:
Have no sad thoughts of me upon the way
“Thou takest home coming; for thy soul shall know
The old glad things and sorrowful its share
Until at last Time’s legions overthrow
The House they days have builded unaware.”
Now therefore am I joyful who have heard
Earth’s message plain to-day, and so I cry
Aloud to you, O Comrades, her last word,
That ye may be as wise and glad as I,
And the long grasses, and the broad green leaves
That beat against the far, unclouded sky:
Who worships me always, who alway cleaves
Close unto me till his last call rings clear
Across the pathless wood,—his soul receives
My peace continually and shall not fear.
Prelude
Watching the tremulous flicker of the green
Against the open quiet of the sky,
I hear my ancient way-fellows convene
In the great wood behind me. Where I lie
They may not see me; for the grasses grow
As though no foot save June’s had wandered by;
Yet I, who am well-hidden, surely know,
As I have waited them, they yearn for me
To lead them whither they are fain to go.
Weary as I, are they, O Time, of thee!
Yea, we, who once were glad only of Spring,
Gather about thy wall and would be free!
With wounded feet we cease from wandering,
And with vain hands beat idly at thy gate;
And thou,—thou hast no thought of opening,
And from thy peace are we still separate.
Yet, comrades, though ye come together there,
And search across the shadows for my face,
Until the pines murmur of your despair,
I think I shall not tell my hiding-place,
For ye know not the path ye would pursue,
And it is late our footsteps to retrace.
Too weak am I, and now not one of you—
So weary are ye of each ancient way―
Retaineth strength enough to seek a new;
And ye are blind—knowing not night from day;
Crying at noontime, “Let us see the sun!”
And with the even, “O for rest, we pray!”
O Blind and fearful! Shall I, who have won
At last this little portion of content,
Yield all to be with you again undone?
Because ye languish in your prisonment
Must I now hearken to your bitter cry?
Must I forego, as ye long since forewent,
My vision of the far-off open sky?
Nay! Earth hath much ungiven she yet may give;
And though to-day your laboring souls would die,
From earth my soul gaineth the strength to live.
O covering grasses! O unchanging trees!
Is it not good to feel the odorous wind
Come down upon you with such harmonies
Only the giant hills can ever find?
O little leaves, are ye not glad to be?
Is not the sunlight fair, the shadow kind,
That falls at noon-time over you and me?
O gleam of birches lost among the firs,
Let your high treble chime in silverly
Across the half-imagined wind that stirs
A muffled organ-music from the pines!
Earth knows to-day that not one note of hers
Is minor. For, behold, the loud sun shines
Till the young maples are no longer gray,
And stronger grow their faint, uncertain lines;
Each violet takes a deeper blue to-day,
And purpler swell the cones hung overhead,
Until the sound of their far feet who stray
About the wood, fades from me; and, instead,
I hear a robin singing—not as one
That calls unto his mate, uncomforted—
But as one sings a welcome to the sun.
Not among men, or near men-fashioned things,
In the old years found I this present ease,
Though I have known the fellowship of kings
And tarried long in splendid palaces.
The worship of vast peoples has been mine,
The homage of uncounted pageantries.
Sea-offerings, and fruits of field and vine
Have humble folk been proud to bring to me;
And woven cloths of wonderful design
Have lain untouched in far lands over-sea,
Till the rich traffickers beheld my sails.
Long caravans have toiled on wearily—
Harassed yet watchful of their costly bales―
Across wide sandy places, glad to bear
Strange oils and perfumes strained in Indian vales,
Great gleaming rubies torn from some queen’s hair,
Yellow, long-hoarded coin and golden dust,
Deeming that I would find their offerings fair.
—O fairness quick to fade! Ashes and rust
And food for moths! O half-remembered things
Once altar-set!—I think when one is thrust
Far down in the under-world, where the worm clings
Close to the newly-dead, among the dead
Not one awakes to ask what gift she brings.
The color of her eyes, her hair outspread
In the most wind that stifles ere it blows,
Falls on unwatching eyes; and no man knows
The gracious odors that her garments shed.
And she, unwearied yet and not grown wise,
Follows a little while her devious way
Across the twilight; where no voice replies
When her voice calls, bravely; and where to-day
Is even as yesterday and all days were.
Great houses loom up swiftly, out of the gray.
Knocking at last, the gradual echoes stir
The hangings of unhaunted passages;
Until she surely knows only for her
Has this House hoarded up its silences
Since the beginning of the early years,
And that this night her soul shall dwell at ease
And grow forgetful of its ancient fears
In some long-kept, unviolated room.
And so the quiet city no more hears
Her footsteps, and the streets their dust resume.
But what have I to do with her and death
Who hold these living grasses in my hands,―
With her who liveth not, yet sorroweth?
(For it shall chance, however close the bands
Of sleep be drawn about her, nevertheless
She must remember alway the old lands
She wandered in, and their old hollowness.)
―Awaiting here the strong word of the trees,
My soul leans over to the wind’s caress,
One with the flowers; far off, it hears the sea’s
Rumor of large, unmeasured things, and yet
It has no yearning to remix with these.
For the pines whisper, lest it may forget,
Of the near pool; and how the shadow lies
On it forever; and of its edges, set
With maiden-hair; and how, in guardian-wise,
The alder trees bend over, until one
Forgets the color of the unseen skies
And loses all remembrance of the sun.
No echo there of the sea’s loss and pain;
Nor sound of little rivers, even, that run
Where with the wind the hollow reeds complain;
Nor the soft stir of marsh-waters, when dawn
Comes in with quiet covering of rain:
Only, all day, the shadow of peace upon
The pool’s gray breast; and with the fall of even,
The noiseless gleam of scattered stars—withdrawn
From the unfathomed treasuries of heaven.
And as the sea has not the strength to win
Back to its love my soul, O Comrades, ye―
In the wood lost, and seeking me therein―
Are not less impotent than all the sea!
My soul at last its ultimate house hath won,
And in that house shall sleep along with me.
Yea, we shall slumber softly, out of the sun,
To day and night alike indifferent,
Aware and unaware if Time be done.
Yet ere I go, ere yet your faith be spent,
For our old love I pass Earth’s message on:
“In me, why shouldst thou not find thy content?
“Are not my days surpassing fair, from dawn
To sunset, and my nights fulfilled with peace?
Shall not my strength remain when thou art gone
“The way of all blown dust? Shall Beauty cease
Upon my face because thy face grows gray?
Behold, thine hours, even now, fade and decrease,
“And thou hast got no wisdom; yet I say
This thing there is to learn ere thou must go:
Have no sad thoughts of me upon the way
“Thou takest home coming; for thy soul shall know
The old glad things and sorrowful its share
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Until at last Time’s legions overthrow
The House they days have builded unaware.”
Now therefore am I joyful who have heard
Earth’s message plain to-day, and so I cry
Aloud to you, O Comrades, her last word,
That ye may be as wise and glad as I,
And the long grasses, and the broad green leaves
That beat against the far, unclouded sky:
Who worships me always, who alway cleaves
Close unto me till his last call rings clear
Across the pathless wood,—his soul receives
My peace continually and shall not fear.
